Remember....

I've been slacking and I don't know why. Every time I make a little progress, I sabotage it. And I don't know why.

I must lose weight. I must lose weight.

This Weekend

Friday
Breakfast: Panera breakfast sammich and Berry Fullfilling Smoothie
Lunch: turkey wrap with lettuce, cheese, honey mustard
Dinner: 3 SMALL California Pizza Kitchen slices of 5 cheese pizza

Saturday
Breakfast: can't remember...i'm sure it will come to me
Lunch: can't remember this either....
Dinner: chicken Tikka with some rice and some Nan and fruit and whipped cream for dessert

Sunday:
Breakfast: fruit and whipped cream
Lunch: chicken sandwhich from BK...=(
Dinner: Publix sub

Monday:
Brunch: some pizza slices...supreme pizza...it was waaaaaaaay too salty for my liking
Dinner: one fajita with 3 peices of steak, some peppers and onions, slight sour cream and shredded cheese.

Woah..it's been ages

wow. Okay, so I've been slacking. Today I DRANK Muscle Milk for breakfast. For lunch I caved and ate a Oldtimer cheeseburger with fries and mayo. Not quite sure what to eat for dinner...

today

Breakfast: Bagel with cheese and turkey, Orange juice
Snack: cookie and small coke
Lunch: 4 slices of turkey and 4 slices of provolone cheese
Dinner: 3 cokes, salad, chicken parm.

I need to exercise...it's been hard...this weekend is pretty busy and this week has been stressful....I know that's no excuse. I'm going to have to work out tomorrow and Monday.

As for the photo I posted in my Goals entry, I know most people would say that that body is unrealistic and fake and unattainable. Just because she was in Playboy, doesn't mean she's fake. I don't know. I think I've always had this like, fantasy (and when I say fantasy, I don't mean something naughty...what I mean is that it's something I would secretly want to do, but never ever really would) of posing for Playboy. My inspiration for this blog, Elizabeth, told me that I really need to keep my goals in mind and have them out there.

Sigh...I'm Tired.

So, yesterday was my birthday. Here's what I ate:

Breakfast: Whole Wheat bagel, Cheese, turkey
Lunch: 2 italian season chicken tenders
Dinner: Liangs bistro sesame chicken with BROWN RICE

My Goals

I realized that I never really posted my goals. My goal is to lose weight and be a size ten again. Although I have a lot of stretch marks, I'd really like to be able to wear a bikini this summer for the first time since I was a little girl.

I'd really love to look like this:

Tomorrow is my Birthdaaaaaaaaaaaay

Okay, so today i had a wheat grain bagel thing with cheddar and provolone cheese and some Boars Head Everroast chicken. For lunch I had a bag of 94% fat free popcorn and linguine with tomato sauce for dinner. I also had one Sprite.

Tomorrow is my birthday!!!! YAAAAAAAAAAAAAY!

ok quick post cuz i'm really tired.

Turkey and prov. cheese sandwhich on those thin circular sandwhich bun thingies.
a piece of chicken pot pie for dinner
3 sprites

not a good day...

Today was not a good day. I had a LOT a LOT of cheese. I also ate a LOT of turkey. For dinner, I had popcorn. I also had four cans of Sprite. What is wrong with me? I think it's because I didn't take my medication today...but still. I know better. And I can tell that this is working, so why did I screw it up?

I just have to remember to start eating three meals a day with two snacks.

I also have to exercise twice this weekend, thirty minutes each time. I hope I can do better tomorrow. Sigh.

sore

Breakfast: Orange Juice, whole wheat bagel with cheese and two slices of turkey
Lunch: small tortilla, light mayo, mustard, approx. 4 slices of cheddar and 5 slices of turkey
Dinner: ok, I can't remember the name but it was 8inch wheat sub with turkey, bacon, lettuce, tomato(I think), no ham, light mayo and mustard.

The workout tonight was more difficult than the first. we used these stretchy ropes and did lots of squats.

Day 2

So here's what I ate today:

Brunch- 2 eggs scrambled, 4 pieces of bacon, 1/3 sausage, 1pint of choc. milk
Dinner- turkey sandwhich: all grain bread, french's mustard, light mayo, 2 slices of BH turkey, and one slice of BH cheddar.

I woke up late.

The First Day

I used to be a size ten. I was skinny when I went to college, and ended up gaining over fifty pounds during my three and a half years of University. I'm currently a size sixteen and have been asked numerous times if I am pregnant. I'm not.

I've finally realized that I need to do this to survive. I have scoliosis and have been told since I was young that if I do nothing, I'll end up in a wheelchair by the time I'm 25. I turn 22 in ten days and there is no way I'm going to let that happen to me.

I guess my attitude has been that I already have stretch marks, so what's the point in trying to lose weight when I'll look even weirder with massive stretch marks. I'm a huge fan of designer fashions, and torture myself by looking at dresses I'll never get to wear. But I'm going to change all that. I'm going to lose this weight and look good.

So, I've started this training session with a personal trainer. Today was the first day, and boy am I sore! We did lunges, jumping jacks, worked our abs....and so much more! I'm nervous to think what Thursday will bring!

The purpose of this blog will be to report my progress, and will also help me keep a food log. Any support or suggestions would be great!